When All That’s Left Is A Smile

“It’s not enough to cry at times. Some times the pain is just too deep.”

Lindsey K Payne

Today I’m am reading through my poetry journals (I have nine by the way). Trying to figure out which pieces to use for my books. I have a few different ideas for my books. I have thought about different themed books or to do them chronologically. I know I won’t publish all of my poems. Not that I don’t like them all, just want the best ones for the world to see.

For those who have published poems before, what helped you decide on your content? Did you start off small or go all out for your first book?

Off to put some ideas together. I will leave you with a oldie…

And Death Becomes Her

And death becomes her

When all that’s left is a smile

Because it doesn’t matter

What happened or will happen

Death will always follow

And time will soon cease

But happiness still comes

From a place near her heart

That’s what keeps her smiling and laughing

Regardless if what death holds

Heaven,

Be it God’s or unknown,

Heaven is on the horizon

For a dream untold and that’s when

Death becomes her

When smiles are all tears

Happiness is all fears

And now there’s no reason to be, but she

And she will conquer and seek all dreams seen

All dreams heard

Even when death becomes her…me

Lindsey’s Inspiration

Hello!

So I figured I should let you all know a little about me and this journey I’ve been on. Let’s go back in time…

I’m a California girl, born and raised. Currently living in Texas. Fell in love with poetry at a fairly young age, but didn’t really start writing it until I was in junior high. Come to think of it, I think I know when I fell in love. Has anyone seen the movie Poetic Justice (starring Janet Jackson and Tupac)? Well in the movie, Janet was a poet. Her poems in the movie were poems written by Maya Angelou (may her beautiful soul rest in peace). My favorite to this day is “Alone. “

“Alone, all alone
Nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.”

That part of the poem has stuck with me to this day. Anyways, I have always been a person who kept to her self most of the time, in regards to internal feelings. As I have grown, that seems to be changing. When I was a teenager- we all know teens, your world turns upside down with emotions! How I dealt? Writing and art. So one journal turned into nine…almost 20 years later. I entered a few of those poetry.com contests back in high school (my work is still in on their site the last time a checked), wrote poems for friends and family, submitted a few to my college’s poetry zine, and performed one poem in person. With all that, the majority of my poems have never been seen or heard.

My art was my therapy. My words, the paint on canvas, anything I did to ease my mind. But words are different than paint- at least I think. So I held on to them tight, never thinking to show the world. Until one day, I thought why not? Other people have spoken their words, and their words made an impact on me. I’m not it for the “fame,” to have my name in everyone’s mouth. But if I help someone else find their voice, I would have accomplished my goal. My purpose in this life is to inspire others…this is just one way.

I will share a favorite poem of mine on my next entry. Until then….

Peace and Love!

Lindsey 🙂