Fly Away

My spirit needs to fly

I feel it caving in

It’s getting harder to breathe

It’s getting harder to see

Some days I just need to be free

Walk away from everything

This emptiness is hard to fill

But each day I pour in love

Each day I tell the truth

Each day I provide space

Each day I make a way

To break away the pain

To break away the doubt

To break away the insecure ways

of my heart

One day, I will be free to fly

2.29.2020

New Intentions

In the morning, the sun rises

Nothing like the dawn of a new day

The rays gently peaking through the blinds

Eventually landing across my face

Never felt peace like this

Thinking it was an impossible wish

I‘ve found happiness

Once I allowed the doubt to subside

New meaning of life came alive

Setting each new day with new intentions

2.28.2020

Hello, 2020

Hello! It’s Lindsey! It’s been a while…again. I remember when I was posting every other day. Well, I’m going to get to that again, among a few other things. I am not upset that I did not complete some of the things I set out to do in 2019. In fact, I am proud of myself for starting the journey and realizing my point of stopping was actually needed. Going through my old journals and poems, was actually kind of hard for me. But now I can look at them and know that I am still growing and these were moments in my life that I needed to express. There is no need for me to be dragged, emotionally, back into those spaces. I just need to read, type and acknowledge the space I was in and know where I am currently in.

Reflection is a very important aspect of self growth. We all have those moments we just can’t believe how we allowed ourselves to be in bad situations, or plain, stupid situations. But I truly believe we are life long learners and sometimes, some of us, just have to relearn our mistakes again and again until we finally say “STOP.” I finally said that in December. I am 100% ready to keep it moving in growth and accepting my WORTH in 2020. That is an absolute.

My work in therapy has been going well and my own work outside of it has definitely been a whirlwind but good. I will be continuing my meditation practice, journaling and setting daily intentions or affirmations. I will be hiking every week and enjoying walks in between. Staying focused on my nature therapy:). Most importantly, listening to myself. Putting my words into actions and only keeping expectations towards myself. I will continue to take one day at time. Breathe when I get overwhelmed and take breaks when my body tells me to. I can’t enjoy this year if I am struggling inside. I speak peace within and around me. I will also be more careful about who I have around me and who I let in my space.

2019 was actually a good year, even with my ups and downs. Cries and laughs. It taught me a lot more than the previous and I am forever grateful for that. I applaud 2019. If you can not live in gratitude, you are not living life. I am excited for 2020. I am excited for my new adventures. I am excited to simply love all of me. I wish the same for those reading this.

Be happy. Be grateful. Be LOVE.

Peace and Love, Lindsey

Love Me

I love too quickly. I love with expectations. I love with caution.

I haven’t been writing on here, but I have been writing. Every day in fact. A few months ago, I decided to take a journey on truly devoting time to myself. Redefining my self- love. It hasn’t been an easy journey. I have had days of being withdrawn. Days, weeks of struggling to get out of bed. Trying to fit into a love a don’t deserve. Forgiving people who I love. Forgiving people I don’t love. Forgiving people who I wish I never needed to forgive. Forgiving myself for choices and mistakes I have made. Forgiving myself for not putting myself first. Forgiving people who do not know what they do, but I understand the love I give, gives hope.

The love I give.

I live and breathe love. I can not be with out it. I have gained and lost love, but it is always present. In all the heartache I have experienced, I still believe in love. I believe love is where you seek it. I believe love is where you give it. I give love. No matter who denies it, no matter who releases it, no matter who fails to see it, no matter who dares to disrespect it. I give love.

Love is the only thing I know how to do.

I’m just relearning how to give it to myself. The one who deserves it the most. The one who knows how to reciprocate it in the way I need it. I love me. Get ready for the next journey.

Love,

Lindsey