To Forgive All, To Regret Nothing…A Heart’s Desire.

“There is no remedy for love but to love more.”

Henry David Thoreau

Heart Wants Love

I’ve continued to ask this question,

“What do I want?”

It seems like such a broad question

with so many answers,

But I feel conflicted with them all

and I try to go with my heart.

My heart’s content means so much to me,

As it’s what keeps me alive,

beating in and out.

And so I ask my heart,

“Dear heart of mine,

What do you want?”

And my heart answers,

“To be completely healed from all previous pains,

To be loved like nothing else,

To be happy with the smallest, simplest

things in the world,

To have a man look at me with so much passion

it makes me skip a beat and sing,

To love hard and slow, great loves should

not be rushed,

To love with all of me

and hold full confidence in self,

To be content even if

it’s just I beating,

To forgive all, to regret nothing,

To live and breathe each day,

To have strength and wisdom

beyond my many years,

To love, to love, to love…”

And my heart continues to sing

Though it still feels pain,

Though it still chases a love so far away,

Though it’s strength seems to be dwindling,

So many wants in this world,

And my little heart of mine

just wants what it truly needs,

And therefore,

My lovely heart will continue to fight,

to fight in what it believes in and what it wants…

Mind, body, soul…my heart loves.

[2/14/2010]

Home Is Where The Heart Is

As I was doing my Daily Calm (on Calm App) meditation this morning, they of course focused on Love. But today was a reminder about self-love. No matter what your relationship status is, self-love is still the greatest love of all.

This reminded me that as many times as I have written love poems, a good amount of them are actually love poems to myself. So today, I chose one to share.

Happy Valentine’s Day to each and every one of your hearts. I hope you find your way back home…

Welcome Home

Wandered too far down a path

less traveled

Wandered to the depths to find love

That was all that mattered

Wandered to roundabouts

and cul-de-sacs

Circling round and round

Thinking you’d get somewhere

Where love was found

Wandered past highways

and broken fences

Through tall grasses and

thorned bushes

Wandered past security alarms

and biting dogs

All to find a love now stuck in bogs

Wandered to ships by the shore

Looking for a love to sail you away

But all you found

Was love destined to drown

Two hearts tied to one another

One thinking the anchor saved them

The other thinking the anchor sank them

Wandered past deserted homes

and run down cars

All whom belonged to the

love you seek

Wandered to the forest

Looking high in the trees

Feeling fresh kisses in the breeze

Wandered past red flowers

and beautiful words

You wandered back to the familiar path

From curiosity to destruction

To hope and despair

To love and hatred

You wandered to hell and back

You found your way home

You found love was there the whole time

You wandered back to your own heart

My dear,

Welcome Home. [1.13.2018]

My Only Agenda ♡

My Agenda

I’m after one thing

Your heart

I’m not one for money and cars

All the materialistic things

In this life

I’m in it for you

Your dreams

Your goals

Your pride

Your strength

Your fears

Your tears

Your smiles

Your everything

Your mental, physical, emotional

This is my agenda

To win your heart

To make love

To have love

To be in love

Not one for flings

Because I’m tired of wasting energy

On the non-lasting

I want the truth

I want the real

I want the life

And I want it with you

This is my agenda

You don’t have to worry

About wandering eyes

And a deceptive heart

Because if you want it

I’ll give it all to you

I’ll be all for you

This is my agenda

I just want your heart

-Lindsey K Payne [12.12.2009]

In the city of Jazz…

I’m going home today, my home is just around the pier, and I won’t say goodbye…New Orleans is my name.

Teena Marie, Resilient

I’ve been on vacation in New Orleans the last few days. While it’s been enjoyable and relaxing, my time to really think on things has been off. My morning routine has changed and productivity of course has been difficult in some ways. I have enjoyed my walks through the city, even visited Armstrong Park and Congo Square today. Looking for some inspiration to write today.

To be in a city so full of history and culture, it’s hard to see everything and put everything into full perspective. There is so much to learn about. I think it’s amazing how music drives this city. Never seen anything like it. I look forward to coming back one day and exploring more.

Hoping the vibes I feel from New Orleans stay with me and can inspire me to write more. All I’ve had is Teena Marie’s “Resilient” song stuck in my head. The beautiful song she created after Hurricane Katrina.

I hope to create something tomorrow, and will post. Just needed to get this out for now. Still finding the structure I want to do for this blog.

Tonight, I pose the question: What inspires you to create?

I hope you all have a great night and thanks for reading.

Peace and Love,

Lindsey 😁

The Words That Heal

Good evening! As promised, I have a couple of my poems to share. Some also are featured with my photography. You can see these and more on my Instagram page @Naturaluphoto.


“Lonely @ Top” was the first poem I entered into a poem contest/form. Oddly enough, I still feel this way at times 18 years later!

Lonely @ Top (12/19/2000)

Lonely @ top I am

Feeling like no one knows me

The real, lonely me

The deep, passionate me

Lonely @ top is no other

Everyone sees me tough skin,

My crazy being

But do they see the sadness, sorrow…

The other me?

The me that’s

Lonely @ top

That no one see’s

The one that cries at night

The one whose an outsider

None other than me

The one that shows no fear

Yet, my fear is none other

Than fear it self

Lonely @ top I am

Do you see me here?


I wrote “Best adventure” one morning just from the inspiration of this photo.

Best Adventure (2/24/2018)

Dive off your canyons and roam your valleys

I just want to explore all of you

The ins, the outs

The hidden, the seen

And everything in between

So when someone asks me

“Was it worth it?”

I can say, “Yes..my best adventure yet…”


This snippet from “And I Saw Her” was written in 2016 after a self reflection period I had.


And this sweet, lovely one was written in 2018 after a bad relationship. Always great to realize how much more you deserve.

Let me know what you think of these! Until next time….

Peace and Love,

Lindsey 😊