Still Need Work

You can’t tame every heart to love as you do.

You can’t tame every soul to feel as you do.

You can’t tame every body to give as you do.

Our expectations are not reality.

Our expectations are not the end all.

Our expectations are not promises.

We cannot ask someone to speak, if we are not ready to listen.

We cannot ask someone to give, if we are not ready to receive.

We cannot ask someone to know, if we are not ready to tell them.

Be kind to yourself, you are worthy.

Be kind to yourself, you are loved.

Be kind to yourself, you are seen.

I trusted you to not fall, but I allowed you to.

I trusted you to not project, but I allowed you to.

I trusted you to not mess up, but I allowed you to.

Every day is another day to look at yourself and recognize,

You still have time to grow.


4.29.2020

Love, A Wanderer

I found myself in your laugh
I found myself in your smile
I found myself in your eye’s reflection
I found myself in your heart
I found myself in your soul
I found myself in your dreams
And yet, I still wander
Looking for my new place to call
Home
Looking for my heart as it continues to roam
Looking for my love as I walk pass my own reflection
Looking for my confidence to show
Looking for my reason and season to turn into lifetime
I found myself in you
But I’m still looking for myself in me, too

4.15.2020

Unconditional

When the love you dreamed of was so intense. What happens when that comes back to haunt you?

Wanted: Unconditional Love

This is what I want

I want him to love

Unconditionally

Think of me 24/7, 365

I want to be his world

His universe

His galaxy

I want him to not sleep

Until he’s said goodnight

Until he kisses me

Until he hugs me

I want him to believe

I can be his everything

And no one

No, no one could ever replace me

Could ever attempt to do so

I want him to scream my name

Lose his breath at the sight of me

Lose his mind when I’m not around

Lose his heart when my love isn’t felt

I want him to be my children’s father

I want him to be my husband

My one and only

I want him to never second guess

On me

On us

I want love to rain so hard

We can’t see

And I want love to rain so hard

It floods our hearts

I want him to want me

So bad, so hard

He can’t live without me

He wonders why it’s taken so long

To find me

Most of all

I want to feel the same about him

So that our love is mutual

So intertwined

There is no end to find

Just love

Just us

Yes, that’s what I want

[06.07.2009]

Don’t Tell Me

Don’t tell me those kisses

Are lies

Don’t tell me those touches

Are myths

Don’t tell me that love

Never lived here

Here in this space

Between you and I

And that now you

No longer hear my cry

No

No don’t tell me

Don’t tell me those eyes don’t reflect

Don’t tell me those hands don’t feel

Don’t tell me that your heart don’t beat

Here in this space

Between you and I

And that now you

No longer see my pain

No

No don’t tell me

Don’t tell me those lungs

Don’t grasp for air

Don’t tell me those veins

Don’t pump blood

Don’t tell me that feelings don’t exite

Here in this space

Between you and I

And that now you

No longer feel my love

No

No don’t tell me

Don’t tell me that all

I’ve ever done

Doesn’t matter

Don’t tell me that all

I’ve ever done

Was a waste

Don’t tell me that all

I’ve ever done

Was solely my fault

No

No love

Don’t tell me that all

The love we made

Was in simple vain

Because my love

You’ll give me the greatest pain

You’ll give me the greatest reason

To cause pain

No

No don’t tell me

This space

Between you and I

Was never meant to stay

No don’t tell me

All I was to you

Was an overnight overdue

[04.29.2008]