My spirit needs to fly
I feel it caving in
It’s getting harder to breathe
It’s getting harder to see
Some days I just need to be free
Walk away from everything
This emptiness is hard to fill
But each day I pour in love
Each day I tell the truth
Each day I provide space
Each day I make a way
To break away the pain
To break away the doubt
To break away the insecure ways
of my heart
One day, I will be free to fly
2.29.2020
In the morning, the sun rises
Nothing like the dawn of a new day
The rays gently peaking through the blinds
Eventually landing across my face
Never felt peace like this
Thinking it was an impossible wish
I‘ve found happiness
Once I allowed the doubt to subside
New meaning of life came alive
Setting each new day with new intentions
2.28.2020
I’m learning to be me
Such a strange concept
How do you learn to be yourself?
Aren’t you inherently yourself?
Have you not been yourself since birth?
We have been molded and prodded into who we are
We have learned that everything from our past has made us
We have learned that society will see you a certain way
Regardless of who you “claim” to be
So, yes
I am learning to be me
Hopefully, you are learning to be you
Your “authentic” true self
The one you cherish
The one who looks directly at you in the mirror
The one who knows all your innermost thoughts and desires
You and I
We are learning to become our truest self
In hopes that one day
It doesn’t matter who we are
It doesn’t matter who thinks they know us best
It doesn’t matter what society claims us as
We are just
Being
2.27.2020
“Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.”
There’s been a few times in life that a few of my hopeful wishes came true. It always seems unreal, like someone is playing a game. It’s hard to trust it. It’s just “too good to be true.” You have no idea what to do with it, now that you have it. You begin to believe that you don’t deserve it. You begin to think that it’s all a mistake, a misunderstanding. No way is this for me.
But it’s for you. Believe it. Because the ongoing moments you spend second guessing, pushing and turning from it, comes the moment you start to destroy what you had. And everything will leave.
Trust that you are worthy. Trust that your wishes and dreams are truly yours to hold. You are ready for everything and more.
Lindsey
I used to love you
Never thought you’d never be mine
Wished for you a thousand times
Written books in your spirit
Nightmares in your soul
I would have traveled the world
If you wanted me to
I would I have traveled for you
But greedy hands do not hold on
Selfish hearts do not bleed
And after years of playing with mine
You see
You see that my heart bled for you
My hands held on to you
My soul screamed at night for you
My spirit wrote your name in everything
Everything was about you
And while there will never be another time
I still find myself looking for you
I find you in others
Hoping one might be the better version of you
Hoping that they don’t have all your colors
I think I’m doing this all wrong
You still haunt me in my dreams
I wish you would leave
I wish I never told you I’d always love you
That you’d be my forever
That you were home
I used to love you
So much I couldn’t stand it
The pain and the relief
With just one look into your eyes
I used to love you
Before I learned to love me
I wish you were never mine
I’d be looking for some other to find
2.25.2020
I haven’t come all this way to back down.
I haven’t been and seen the worse of life to let it capsize me into ruins.
I’m here for a reason.
I must live my purpose.
I’m not here to tell you, you are my reason to live.
Because I’m my OWN reason to live.
I grow because the Sun woke me up, the Earth fed me and the Water refreshed me.
You tried to keep me inside for darkness to reign.
So you could stunt my growth to stay on your level.
We are not on the same level.
I am not the woman you need me to be.
I am the woman I need to be.
So sorry for your loss, I was too busy remembering her light.
I am too busy remembering, I had me before I even had the thought of you.
And, unfortunately, you no longer have permission to access her.
2.24.2020
It’s amazing how easily we can go
From high to low,
That the heart can go from
Emptiness to overflow,
From heartbreak to “I’ve never felt this before”
We try so hard to stay connected
We often fail to see the missing link
We try so hard to overlook the flaws
We often forget to see ourselves
In one second, everything can be fine
In one second, lives can be destroyed
In one second, love can be found
In one second, love can drown
This life is filled with highs and lows
Balance they call it
To have the good, you must have the bad
To know your strength, you must fall down
Get up
Get up
Get up
This is nothing to keep you down
Today is a low
Tomorrow is a high
2.23.2020
Too busy out living life yesterday, didn’t make a post. And while, I have been making February a “post a day,” I’m not disappointed for missing yesterday. The thing about life is, you truly have to live it. And live it in more than just words daily. But to be in the moment. Cherish the moments. Cherish the people you are with and cherish the time you give yourself. I was busy yesterday! Amazing hiking adventure with one of my besties. Spent time with my mentee. Dinner and relaxing with new and old friends. I have nothing to complain about in that day.
So I’m just keeping it simple and sweet. Continue to be present in every day, with every person you are around. You never get the same memories again. You never know what time you have, so spend it carefully.
Until the next post…Peace and Love to you all.
Lindsey
I’m content with life
Not happy
Not sad
Simply in the middle
As I continue to grow
Many people may not understand
How it is that I’m able to stand
And simply put, I’m content
I stand, yet I could still break
If given that opportunity
But most importantly
Even if I fall
I have the strength to get up
And continue to stand
I’m content with my life
Not happy
Not sad
Because things in my life
Still bring me down
But my determination
Is what keeps my two feet on the ground
My pride is what keeps me from
Buckling down
I’m content
Missing love
Longing love
Missing companionship
Longing companionship
But I’m content
Because those will
Come when most needed
And when I’m most prepared
Until then
I’m content
I will continue to be content
Because that’s what keeps me alive
That’s what keeps me joyful
That’s what keeps me sane
Being content
Without lover’s lane
10.5.2007
One of my old favorites…
I’ve been waiting for those whispers
To carry sweet words into my soul
Sing loud to my heart
And never letting go
Sweet story of a little girl
Dreaming way beyond the horizon
Searching and searching
Not for extraordinary
But for plain ordinary
Simplicities are the sweet honey
For her taste
Complexities are just filled with bitterness
The bitterness she does not desire
So why does she continue on her search?
Looking for the king who
Stole her heart
Stole her soul
Stole her mind
Stole her body
Continuing across the valley
She searches
Quietly listening to the wind’s words
Hoping she’s going into the right direction
Have to be in the right direction…
7.8.2008
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